I’ve been through some painful shit. Not gonna lie. And I’ve typed a lot of painful words on my keyboard that needed to come out. And I continue to get it out. I don’t plan on ever giving up my journaling. I’ve told you what it means to me. It saved my life. Literally.
There was one night when the pain was bad. I will go as far to say that it was the worst. And I was alone. And I wanted to contact nobody. I was in too much pain. I felt like I needed to go this one alone. I started on my bedroom floor in sheer agony, lying in the fetal position. This was going somewhere, and I could feel a fear setting in that I had never felt before.
I was going into some deep pain. And I was scared. Really scared. For me. For my life.
So I desperately pulled out my laptop, and began pounding on my keys. I had to get this shit out. I was absolutely frightened and in a shit ton of pain that was quickly beginning to overtake me. And I couldn’t control it. I had been able to in the past.
And I pounded the fuck out of those keys. I was fighting for my life.
And then I threw myself on the floor, and just let it out. The deepest, most painful cry ever. And I wrapped my arms around me cause that’s all I had at the moment. I had to save me. There was no one else. And I did. I saved me. I was there for me. I don’t know how or where the strength came from, but it came when I needed it the most. And I have never gone back to that point of pain again, and I don’t think I will.
I care what you are working through. I really do. I understand your pain.
I understand what it feels like to be in a place where you have no one. So I want to be that someone for you. I want you to hit my Video Link for Self-Harming before you get to that place where I was. It’s a dangerous place.
I am here for you. Even in your darkest hour. You can find my Video Link for Self-Harming in all my videos, on my website under the Help Tab and I’ve linked it below. Always remember to have compassion for yourself for what you are working through, and stay safe.
